Have you ever? (The anxiety version)

When butterflies fall in love do they feel humans in their stomachs?

Maybe not 

Have you ever asked yourself, "when is it my turn to be happy"?

Have you ever thought that maybe just maybe death will be more peaceful than living?

How quick it might be to end all the noises in your head

The pills work, but only for a few hours.

The drinks drown all your demons but they don't stay down.

The cigarettes also work but my thoughts rise from the ashes and I don't mean the Phoenix kind.

Have you ever felt alone with so much pain inside you?

You ever felt the anger burning up its almost making you crazy and you don't know what to do?

Sometimes it's like it paralyzes you.

Have you ever wondered how could someone seem so in love one day and the next, they just leave?

You ever told people you're 'tired' but in reality you're just sad?

Have you been so tired, sad, cold inside and depressed but you can't cry tears, you've forgotten how to so you just lay on the floor

Have you ever laughed at how slowly you're losing yourself?

Have you experienced that moment when you realize that the love you share with a person has no future?

And the heartbreak that comes with it? It's choking, really.

You ever missed the way they treated you when y'all first started talking?

They left and now you're just a pile of mess, a walking time bomb that could explode at any moment.

Have you ever had that feeling while listening to music and the memories come back to you?

You ever listened to a song that describes your whole life?

So you listen to it over and over again.

You ever listened to a song that makes you smile and cry cause it reminds you of someone you can't see anymore?

Everyone has a story yeah?

Mine left.