Epiphanies

I guess it took me a while to realize that monsters don't live under my bed.
They live in my mind, screaming at and scratching on the happy thoughts I have left.
It took me a while to realize that love isn't easy and easy love isn't real.
I took me to listen to a song for 3 minutes 21 seconds to remember so much.

Love is an ocean that I swam in with the wrong person and I drowned.

Let's put breakups aside for a moment yeah? 

You ever been more than friends with a person?

Like you're passed the point where you care so much about them. 

Too much infact.

Then they just leave, disappear.

Gone with no reason whatsoever. 

Stuffs like that changes you, painfully.

After all the painful, anxious, the good and the extremely terrifying days that I've gone through.

Nah,

scratch that, 

I'm still walking down the excruciating path but I'll get there, eventually, hopefully.

I've come to realize somethings,

An epiphany if you will.

Realized that falling in love is a leap of faith. It's like giving another person a gun. It's now left to the person to protect you with it or shoot you in the heart.

I'm a museum full of art but people had their eyes shut.
I think one of the hardest and most difficult thing to do is having to teach yourself to go on without someone who was one of the main reasons you kept going on in the first place.

I saw a quote online one-time and I'm starting to see it now; 

I'm rare, so people are going to fall in love with the thought or idea of having you, but most of them aren't used to rare, they're foreign to it, so they'll lack the capacity to treat you as such. And that's when they lose you and then leave you.
It's not my fault they left.
It's not my fault that they can't handle me or they aren't used to rare, priceless works of art like myself.
It's theirs.
I've learnt or at least I'm trying to never cry over any relationship.

Cause for those whom you cry for, doesn't deserve it.

And the ones who deserve it will never let you cry.

You are not the first pair of eyes that I've confused for home but still, you were by far the hardest to leave. 

Now I know that roses aren't all red
Violets will never be blue
Because whatever happens,
You can't love me like I do.