HE

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Your smile is the closest thing to heaven he will ever get. 
He told the stars about you, you know.
They told him that they can see how bright they are through your eyes. 
There were times when he will look at you and say that he's really lucky to be by your side. 
There were other times he looked at you and thought "crap, it's really going to hurt if you leave"
He was right. 
Now you're just another story he can't tell anymore. 
A stranger with all his secrets.

He never liked that song you know,
But when he found out that it was one of your favorites.
He listened to it over and over, and it became one of the best songs he's ever heard.

Months ago, you both stayed up till 3am talking. 
Today, he doesn't even know how to say 'hey'
He was reading through old messages and he laughed then he cried because he knows that the bond he had with you can never come back. 
He still thinks about you,
Because of you he has tried so many things that he shouldn't have done to forget you. 
Now sadness is like an ocean that he's forced to swim in.
You didn't just break all your promises. 
You broke him.
All he could do was stare at the wall in silence with tears in his eyes. 
You put him through hell and he called it love.

In spite of everything that has happened to him, he still loves you and misses you but doesn't want you back. 
His heart has been really strong but he doesn't think it can handle any more pain. 
HE can't handle more pain.
But he wants to thank you. Thank you for all the good times and the laughter you two had together, at least you made him happy for a while. 

The good news is that now he realizing that; 
He's not a problem, 
He's a freaking museum full of art but people just had their eyes shut.
You had your eyes shut. 
He's stronger than this y'know
He came from a strong prayerful woman who molded his heart inside her with love for nine months. 
He shouldn't let anyone break it in 10 seconds. 

He hopes for a love so deep the ocean will be jealous. 
He hopes to find someone who feels like home. 
He wants someone who deserves his love, his time and efforts.
He wants someone to be his moon that will light up his darkest nights. 
He wants someone who can calm his raging storms by just looking at her. 
He wants someone who he can spend the rest of his life with and be happy to prove to people that true love still exists. 

He's bad at expressing his emotions verbally,
So writing it is...

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