Painful chapter

Everyday I'm a slave to heartaches

Sometimes I wish I could stop existing

No, not to die, 

but just to stop feeling,

Just to stop being.

It hurts like hell you know.

When you know you need to let go of someone but you can't cause you're waiting for the impossible to happen.

Well you can say I caused all this damage to myself.

I feel so much that it's hard for me to feel anything at all.

The amount of sadness I feel right now is ugly.

I can't cry even if I wanted to,

I haven't been able to for a long time.

Having a happy personality and a sad soul in one body feels weird sometimes.

Honestly speaking I have to write this, 

I need to.

It's getting really heavy inside.

I just need somewhere to pour it out I guess.

I thought I found love, happiness and peace of mind at the same time. 

Funny right?

You want to know what else is funny? 

How she notices how I look at her like she's my whole world and still doesn't want anything to do with me.

From,

I love disturbing you,

To,

Sorry for disturbing you.

Somewhere I guess your love died.

Sigh*

I just can't catch a break.

I guess I wasn't the guy you wanted.

Can't blame you though I'm a mess.

A hot one but

Oh well,

You did what you did, 

I felt how I felt and it is what it is.

But still, 

if you need me, I'm here.

If you don't, well I'm still here.

Thanks for the temporary happiness though,

I guess we can go back to being strangers now.