How she lost her ex

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Dear ex,
If someone asks you why I left you?
Then tell them;

He was insanely in love with me. He told me that he doesn't want any heartbreak cause he wasn't strong enough to go through the pain but he was strong enough to love me even in worst times. He cared for me more than I deserved and waited till the end of the day for my call just to end the day with my voice. He loved me even more than himself. 
(I'm sure he's thinking that's where he made a mistake but who can blame him).

I took him for granted and ignored all his calls because I was sure he would never leave me. His love made me powerful. His love lightened up my soul. 
Everyone loved me.
Many guys tried hitting on me and he became possessive. I was on cloud nine and got attracted to one of the options. The urge of love and being satisfied in a relationship wasn't enough for her. I left him for someone else.

He kept crying in the end and asked for a reason. He gave me literally anything I wanted or desired even when he didn't have the strength for it. I betrayed my commitment and promises. I didn't give him the closure because she was the demon. I gave him stupid reasons and then started dating another guy. But he took the glow and light in my soul with him. Soon my dark demons even became bored and ditched me.
I never smiled like before.
Today I don't even have the courage to go back to him. 
He used his pain and became a successful writer.
I lost him forever...


Now every cigarette she inhales,
A memory of you and also a piece of herself she exhales, and the pain turns into ashes.

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