3 A. M

Listen closely to the songs I play because the lyrics speaks the words I failed to say.

Nobody notices your sadness until it turns into anger... Now you're crazy and need help.

Sleeping is so hard when you're thinking.

Honestly speaking, if overthinking was a drug, I'll be high as a kite.

Remember how we used to talk everyday?

I miss that.

What happened to you'll never leave me?

I guess I'm that easy to forget.

Now I'm walking about with a cloud of sadness over my head.

I know my heart doesn't physically breaks but my heart and head hurts.

I'm tired.

Being an open book in front of you was one of my biggest mistakes.

I wish I could hate you and forget you existed but you live in my mind.

I rejected everyone to be with you,

and the twist is, you rejected me to be with everyone.

I don't need to talk about the world.

I don't want to think about you

But I have to admit,

You were the best waste of time.

I just want to sleep with a smile on my face

Is that too much to ask for?

You are that "nothing" when people ask me what I'm thinking.

I have more scars than friends.

Why is it so hard for people to tell the truth?

Now I get why Peter pan didn't want to grow up.

Growing up is hard.

This life is crappy as hell.

I know life ain’t a bed of roses,

I just wasn’t expecting thorns.

Cause every time I lay my head 

Someone stabs me in the back.

I'm sick and tired of people coming into my life right now..

You come into my life,

I get attached,

You leave

And now I have to pickup the pieces.

I just want to be happy.

Not confused, hurt or stressed.

Just happy.

Maybe I'll get there one day.

Maybe it won't hurt so bad one day.