Pain

Have you ever given someone a motivational speech while you're hurting inside?

Have you ever missed someone so badly your emotions turned into tears and rolled down your cheeks? 

You ever just listen to music and all of a sudden the lyrics line up with the pain you're going through now? 

Have you ever walked to your house and start having a breakdown before you enter your home? You lay on the floor there crying your eyes out for hours, wanting to do something to distract you from the pain but not having the energy to get up. 

You think that you can relate to pain?

You think you've experienced pain? 

Na you've not experienced a quarter of it if you haven't looked yourself in the mirror, dark circles under your eyes and you find yourself holding back tears, begging yourself to hold on a little longer. 

You think that you have a problem because it was so easy for them to get over you.

Have you ever been dumped by your partner, you're awake at 2am wondering why he/she left without leaving you a goddamn reason. 

You ever had that sick feeling when you can actually feel the pain in your chest from hearing or seeing something that actually breaks your heart? 

You ever made to swim in a sea of sadness and then left there to drown over and over again? 

You think back and ask yourself 'what happened to them being there for me always'

You ever thought what will happen if my parents found out that their always happy, smiling and loving child was gone years ago?

All is left now is lonely child with a dark and empty soul.

What most of y'all don't know about depression it's that it's not just a state or feeling of sadness. It's sometimes a mixed feeling of emptiness and numbness and it can't be shown by just looking at someone.

It's funny isn't it?

How we all are suffering from one issue or pain in one way or the other but can't, won't or just don't say a word, we're screaming inside but can't be heard. 

Yeah breakups hurt

But have you ever watched your best friend turn into a stranger? 

Now the little things hurt the most. 

Sleep isn't sleep anymore, it's just an escape from your inner chaos. 

You're sick of crying,

Sick of trying. 

Yeah you're smiling, 

but inside you're dying.