Me☺

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Do you want to know a bit about me
Of course you might think my life is jolly geee!!!

I think too much and I feel too deep. What a dangerous combination.
They say sometimes in a person's life it's either you fall in love or fall into depression.
I've fallen into both.
I forget most of the time that not everyone has the same heart as me when it comes to love and it wrecks me in the end all the time.
I struggle with words, I never could express myself the way I wanted to.
I wasn't myself for months and nobody noticed that
I wasn't always like this you know.
I wasn't always insecure, sad or numb.
I miss the old me.
The mini me who didn't care about anything but himself and his family.
The mini me who got insulted and bullied a million times but didn't feel a single thing.
I miss the old me, I really do  but also like what I'm becoming.
I'm growing up, I'm learning what's best for me, and if I have to lose a couple of people to get to where my happiness and peace of mind lies, then I'm okay with that.

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