Adeife's wurld

I broke my own heart trying to love you I just keep silent, but it hurts It's fine though, just know this Whenever you miss me, remember you had me and I was never enough. We didn't have to do this, we could have just stayed strangers. I have my insecurities. I try to get rid of them but they're like my inner demons, always hitting me every chance they get. I'm sorry I get jealous most of the time.  The thing is that, I'm afraid. Afraid that someone's making you happier than I do. It's stupid I know, that's just the way my insecurities made me to think. Maybe you're not the one for me, maybe there's someone better, I don't know and I don't care. All I want is you because whenever you're here, I fall asleep in seconds, you make feel comfortable. Like you're my home.

Have you ever typed "I'm fine" with tears in your eyes? Have you ever gotten hurt by the same person you explained your pain to? Have you ever been surrounded by 20 people but still feel like the loneliest person in the world? Have you ever sat down and say to yourself "I shouldn't be so unhappy at this age"? Have you ever cried yourself to bed? Have you ever looked at the stars late at night with tears in your eyes and wished "all I want is a day without sadness" Have you ever face time or video chat with your favorite person and leave them there while you both do other things because you enjoy their company? Have you ever met someone who's smile lights up your gloomy day and shuts the demons tormenting you from the inside up? Have you ever looked at him or her when they're like they will give the entire world if they can and smile and think "YOU ARE my entire world"